decorate your untamed nature
Dec. 22nd, 2023 05:18 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
brandywine28Okay. Alright. I know. Not only have I not been around since JUNE, my last post implied I was about to be swallowed up by a scary orange mist?? And...that is not cool. It isn't cool to tell everyone you're probably about to die via mist and then just -- never bother to pop back in and let them know that nope! Your melodramatic ass is still alive! Not only is it uncool, it sucks. I have no excuse.
But I do have an explanation, and it's a weird one. See, there's this thing that happens to me every time I move (and I've moved a lot! Which means it's happened to me a lot!) where, hmm. How do I even articulate this? It's like. Being in an unfamiliar place kind of...flips off my personality switch? All the things I do for fun, all my little routines -- I lose them. Sometimes it takes me months to get them back, and while I'm waiting for that to happen it can get pretty bleak. Sleep-eat-shower-unbox, sleep-eat-shower-unbox. And not much else. It's the damnedest thing. It's like I have a baby's sense of object impermanence, except I'M the object; it's usually awhile before I settle down and my dumb infant brain accepts that I'm the same person and I can do the same things, even in a brand new place.
And I can't even say I'm fully there yet! But it's holiday time and I wanted to come spread some cheer anyway. Is everyone feeling merry? Jolly? The holidays always make me erratic, which is ridiculous, because I'm not religious (I like to tell people I'm "culturally Catholic", but I should probably cut that out, because they always want me to elaborate, and, like, no? Don't ask me questions about myself and also, don't look at me?) and I don't have any kids to wrangle. Nevertheless! I felt the deep seated need to post TODAY, because by Christmas morning, I feel I will have completed my ultimate transformation into a pinecone covered in googly eyes.
But, oh! I managed to put up a tree! I love my lil' tree; I went a little hard on the dangly icicles, but she pulls them off so well! She's like a festive prism! I'll see if I can take a photo that isn't too blurry and doesn't show too much of my awful, banged up wall (long story).
And that's the other thing. That this apartment can even fit a tree at all is still just so wild to me. I didn't have to suspend it from the ceiling! Or stick it on the fire escape! Astounding! I'm soooo aware that I still have a ton of apartment impressions to share, and I'm gonna do it as soon as I revert back from my pinecone state. (Which I will! I hope.) Also, gaahhh, I feel like I'm totally out of the loop now and I can't stand it; I'm gonna get caught up on everyone's back entries over the break, but I feel like that's not enough. Should I do some sort of apology dance? Hmm. Well, even if I do, you're just gonna have to imagine it, because those kinds of moves cannot -- and should not -- be filmed.
But I do have an explanation, and it's a weird one. See, there's this thing that happens to me every time I move (and I've moved a lot! Which means it's happened to me a lot!) where, hmm. How do I even articulate this? It's like. Being in an unfamiliar place kind of...flips off my personality switch? All the things I do for fun, all my little routines -- I lose them. Sometimes it takes me months to get them back, and while I'm waiting for that to happen it can get pretty bleak. Sleep-eat-shower-unbox, sleep-eat-shower-unbox. And not much else. It's the damnedest thing. It's like I have a baby's sense of object impermanence, except I'M the object; it's usually awhile before I settle down and my dumb infant brain accepts that I'm the same person and I can do the same things, even in a brand new place.
And I can't even say I'm fully there yet! But it's holiday time and I wanted to come spread some cheer anyway. Is everyone feeling merry? Jolly? The holidays always make me erratic, which is ridiculous, because I'm not religious (I like to tell people I'm "culturally Catholic", but I should probably cut that out, because they always want me to elaborate, and, like, no? Don't ask me questions about myself and also, don't look at me?) and I don't have any kids to wrangle. Nevertheless! I felt the deep seated need to post TODAY, because by Christmas morning, I feel I will have completed my ultimate transformation into a pinecone covered in googly eyes.
But, oh! I managed to put up a tree! I love my lil' tree; I went a little hard on the dangly icicles, but she pulls them off so well! She's like a festive prism! I'll see if I can take a photo that isn't too blurry and doesn't show too much of my awful, banged up wall (long story).
And that's the other thing. That this apartment can even fit a tree at all is still just so wild to me. I didn't have to suspend it from the ceiling! Or stick it on the fire escape! Astounding! I'm soooo aware that I still have a ton of apartment impressions to share, and I'm gonna do it as soon as I revert back from my pinecone state. (Which I will! I hope.) Also, gaahhh, I feel like I'm totally out of the loop now and I can't stand it; I'm gonna get caught up on everyone's back entries over the break, but I feel like that's not enough. Should I do some sort of apology dance? Hmm. Well, even if I do, you're just gonna have to imagine it, because those kinds of moves cannot -- and should not -- be filmed.
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Date: 2023-12-22 01:05 pm (UTC)It's good to know you survived the orange mist.
Enjoy your tree, and your holiday feelings, and always know we're here when you're ready to post.
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Date: 2023-12-22 03:08 pm (UTC)